I'm trying to change myself to become a better person, but it seem that my effort has became a joke to some of my friends. I was hoping that they could give me some support, but instead they down-graded me. A good friend of mine told me that they didn't mean to tease me and asked me to believe in it. Well, I'm believe in him, but what about the rest? Really devastated........
Salam. Before I begin my post for today, I would to wish Happy Eid to all Muslims out there!
In Bangalore, we celebrate our Eid on Saturday (11/9/2010). This is my 2nd time celebrating Eid at overseas. It's a lil' bit sad since I can't celebrate it with my family this year, but there always another year, if God permit. 1st day of celebration was done at Sanjaynagar, which is my area. For this celebration, we, Sanjaynagarian combine our force with team Muthyalnagar. We pull out the whole night, giving each other hands in preparing the foods, the decor, and almost everything. We prepare satay (both chicken and meat), nasi impit (compliment from a Johor chef, huhuhu), mee kari, laksa, nasi ayam, bebola milore (compliment of dzola), rendang ayam (compliment of jad), kuah kacang, some kuih raya (semprit, kuih makmur, almond london, etc2) and of course air sirap limau ais! The most fun part for me, is making the ketupat. This is my first time doing it, and I learnt it from my master Syahir, huhuhuhu. Still not an expert of it, but at least I know the steps of making it :) We also grilled the satay, along with some BBQs. It was fun, the night of preparation, and the result was terrific! People came last Saturday, enjoying the food and having a good time. It feel nice, seeing my friends and I enjoying each other. For me, it was a success.
For the 2nd day of Eid, another feast was held yesterday at Fien's house in Raghuram's, Gokula. The menu that the Gokulan has prepared were nasi minyak with acar sayur and ayam masak merah, lontong, rendang daging, a chocolate cake (compliment of neerna and ira), some dadih and puding, karipap, and a bevarage (can't recognize the flavour, but it was nice!). I didn't hang out there long because I have another thing to do at Mathikere, but the food was great! Thanks to Gokulan for the food :)
PS: These pictures are compliment form hamid's, butet's, gee's and jad's cameras. Thank you!
That time of year thou mayst in me behold When yellow leaves, or none, or few, do hang Upon those boughs which shake against the cold, Bare ruin'd choirs, where late the sweet birds sang. In me thou seest the twilight of such day As after sunset fadeth in the west, Which by and by black night doth take away, Death's second self, that seals up all in rest. In me thou see'st the glowing of such fire That on the ashes of his youth doth lie, As the death-bed whereon it must expire Consumed with that which it was nourish'd by. This thou perceivest, which makes thy love more strong, To love that well which thou must leave ere long.
PS: I will never forget this day.......Rest in peace, along..........
Salam. It's been a while. Before I begin writing my post, I would like to thanks my friends; syahir, yaya, munira, nonie, mimi, tiqah, fareed, aina, saran and waheeda for celebrating my 22nd birthday on 3/9/2010 at BBQ Nation. It was fun and I appreciate it sooo much (after munira had upload the pic at fb, maybe I will be put it here later on). Again, thank you!
So, confuse? Yeah, I'm totally confuse about myself right now. It all started 3 years ago when I fall in love with someone. Let call this person as "B". This was a first sight love. 'B' is one year older than me, and 'B' is like an angel falling off from the heaven. 'B' is in the same batch as I am. Whenever 'B' is not around, I feel restless and have no desire to move on with the class. I can't stand alone without 'B'. It is not the same when 'B' is not around. When 'B' is there, I feel secured and comfortable. I feel happy and amused. I like it when 'B' is around, because it make me at peace. Whenever I look at 'B's photos, it make me calm and drain away all my problem. I like 'B' so much. But, the problem is that I have no gut to put it into words and said it to 'B'. Until now, 'B' doesn't know it because I'm too scared to tell 'B'. After 3 years, I started to think whether that feeling is true or not. Why? Because 'B' is not someone that you imagine. 'B' is different from the others. I am unworthy to 'B', and even I express my feeling to 'B', I'm sure that 'B' will be freaked out and stand away from me. I want to keep that friendship with 'B', but I don't want to lose 'B' because of my stupid feeling......Now I'm confuse @_@