Friday, July 23, 2010

My conscience......

Salam. It is a cold and windy day here in Bangalore. For me, the weather is so nice and refreshing. In my previous post I had mention about my IA exam theory paper. Today, I just want to share a lil' bit about my ophthalmology practical exam that I had last week. Me, munira and nonie received a patient who is a post-catarat. Eliciting the history from the patient is not an easy job here because of the language barrier. Yeah, I know that we suppose to master the Kannada language after been here for 3 years, but the language is tough and difficult to master. Anyway, we had a translator who translated for us. After eliciting the history and performing the examination, we went for viva. Mine is with Dr. Radhika, haih~ It was a horrid experience. Being viva with her is like receiving hundreds of nuclear bombs! It was scary and disastrous, and that's all I can say about it. Ok now, back to the present. Recently, my conscience seem to be out of order. I am unable to make a fair judgement. Yesterday, I had done something which, believe me, can change my life forever. But, thank to my dear friends (Syahir and Saran), after doing it once, I immediately change my mind and swear not to do it anymore! I know that thing is dangerous, but my evil desire kept told me to do it. Now, I am resting at my home, skipping class for today so that I can 'muhasabah' myself and hopefully that my conscience is back to norm. Maybe living in this country is the triggering factor for it, due to lots of stress that I had to bear. Pray for me, and hoping that today will be better than yesterday......

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

The worse IA ever!

Salam to all. We have enter the second week of July. Seem to me that 2010 had just appear, but when looking back at the calendar, it soon going to leave us. Well, doesn't matter about that since I still be here, at Bangalore for another 3 1/2 year, haih~ Today I just finished my last theory paper, ophthalmology. People, let me tell you this. I was horrible in this exam! I don't know what happen to my good karma. It seem to leave me, or hiding somewhere. I done worse in the theory papers, seriously! Community medicine paper, well let just say that I was very grateful even if I get 50% marks. ENT, well not bad, but still has many thing to work up on that subject. The worse is ophthalmology this morning. Very disappointed with myself today for not answering it properly. There is one question: Describe the clinical features of acute iridocyclitis. I note down most of the symptoms like pain, lacrimation, photophobia, blepharospasm, etc2. I wrote down some of the signs such as red eye, deep ciliary congestion, but I blame myself for not noting down the most important signs, like keratic precipitate, aqueous flare, aqueous cells, the colour & pattern of the iris, etc2. I can assume that I might get 1-2/5 marks, but really people, I feel sooo stupid not to put down that answer! Damn!!!! Overall, ophthalmology suck for me, really2 suck!! Even though I say to myself that we can do it better in the next IA, but right now I feeling down, plus tomorrow I'll be having ophthalmology practical exam at Baptist Hospital. Many of you know that I hate failure. Even though people said that from failure, we will learn something, but to accept the failure after so much hardwork put on that job, it's really painful. I guess I have to force myself tonight and open up the book for tomorrow exam. May Allah be with me in my journey of seeking knowledge. Until then people....

PS: WC 2010 has finally over with Spain as the champion. Congratulation to Spain team. I wonder when Malaysia will be in the list for WC?? :-?


Thursday, July 08, 2010

EXAM MODE...

WISH ME LUCK IN THIS 1st INTERNAL ASSESSMENT!
I'M REALLY NEED THEM!!